No no don't get me wrong.
I'm not complaining about my skills here for the most part...

But be prepared for "Glory's thoughts when she's by herself listening to music at night"

Because i can rant...

I figured i should do this so i don't hog up Prince's post ;D

I'm not complaining about my skill, or how terrible the world has become really

But i am talking about how big the world is and how small I am.
The world needs beautiful things that i can't give.

Not yet at least.

My sentences are scattered because my mind is scattered.
I think in movements and feelings.

Not formal words and studied grammar.

I want to make beautiful things.
Does anyone else feel like this?

I want to make art.
Draw the beauty i create
Take photos of the beauty that exists
Write the words that make people think beautiful thoughts.

I want to go places and meet people.

Have a tv show where i just get to go to new places and learn wonderful things from people who would go invisible for their lives if not for me.

I want to mean something.


It seems so much to ask.

I just want to make beautiful things.

Has anyone heard of Tyler Knott Gregson? Gosh he's awesome...


Anyways.

I wish i could say things better i guess,
Like as ## as things are,

There's beauty in all of it.

I want to make people cry with words of truth

And think about things they wouldn't think before...


Is that too much to ask?

I don't care how i do it, i just want to have meaning.

People aren't meant to just live things in black and white.
This life isn't about us, but it's about everyone else.

I don't care what i do, i just what to help others


Am i crazy?
For thinking that it's possible?

Am i talking to no one?
Most likely...


As crazy as they are, J.D. Salinger created a people. They are known for going crazy and killing people, but the words are true. The world is a horrible place but that's not how the story ends is it?
Holden caulfield doesn't starting holding anger at the world, and he doesn't kill people... no.
It's more real.

It's almost that he realizes he was wrong in a way.


I want to make things be a dream.
The feel of unrealness
And impossiblity,

But when they open their eyes, they'll realize it was like that the whole time...


Gosh i wish i could say things better...
Make every word count...

But i really can't i can only try... i hope that one day, maybe i'll have the ability to make things beautiful.
Honestly, i just want the insides beautiful.

I want people's minds to be filled with beauty...
Whether it makes them depressed or happy,
All emotions have a beauty of their own...

I guess the best things, leave you as both.

things i like:

.... this is why i shouldn't be left alone  

All I have to say about this post is...

Seems X and Undelos have competition!  

Something something beautiful something something beautiful
something something beautiful something something... beauty.
I told you I could read.   

Jk but I think it's just your hormones. (Semi-srs.)
Or you just need a break from the indoors and you probably just want go out some time as you may
have no had the chance.
At night I think too much too.
Well apparently I think too much all the time excluding
those rare times when my mind is blank...

in which case my subconscious is talking instead. (That's like 'dead-inside, zombie mode'.)
So...Glory what do you want us to do?   

Ignore X and Oliver.


Well everything you made was and is already beautiful. Because you were really into it and cared so much about it.

Even if you didn't think it was good, to other people it was better than they could do.
When you post something everyone here loves it and smile, so you're sharing something with a small part of the world. Since we're all having fun and sharing these things, you can say that itself is beautiful in a way.

In a way you did meet people already from around the world, but when you're older you can just use your money for that. Your books are good so maybe you'll be the next "Hunger Games"

Idk about "meaning" I mean you gave some people a reason to get on xat, skype, here, fusion fall,   

when people are feeling down you would cheer them up, when theyre bored you make them laugh. I think that if the "meaning" everyone has right now is to be there for the people around us who already think we have a meaning, than I feel it's better than getting the attention of the entire world for a 15 min. of fame.

We all know the world is cold, so what else is there to do except enjoy the quiet and warm times twice as much.

The Grump wrote:

Ignore X and Oliver.

Just said X and Undy now have competition. Nothing wrong with that. 'Bout time someone else took the award of longest post. And who better than the best artist here?

Oliver Zombieweasel wrote:

The Grump wrote:

Ignore X and Oliver.

Just said X and Undy now have competition. Nothing wrong with that. 'Bout time someone else took the award of longest post. And who better than the best artist here?

lol I just read the atmosphere, didn't sound like the kind of comments she expected after venting lol.

Yeaaaah, it was mostly for myself,
I mean i can't do muuuuch now,
But i'm trying

thanks marcie   


Ahahaha it's okay if you didn't read it all or whatever,
Pretty much as x said,
It's nearly all the same xD



Buuuuut!

On the plus side i found 2 books i wanna buy :3


YAY!!!  


@oliver
D'aaaww shucks xD well i dunno about best artist here,
Everyone is awesome in their own ways...

We're all trying to get better

and really isn't that the important part?



And yeah, again, i shouldn't be left alone...
I think too much,
And when no one interrupts me...
It can get bad   


my life:

The Grump wrote:

Ignore X and Oliver.

It's one of *those* threads, Grumpy.
The half rant, half philosophical wonder threads.
If I can't relate, I won't get it. That's what happened here.
I mean I do like producing beautiful stuff (including visual imagery)
and hate the fact that the world is full of evil but....I can't relate to
this context.
I know she wrote a lot and I didn't mean to give a bad atmosphere (did I really?  )
but this is the kinda stuff that someone writes
when they're alone at night or listening to sad music for a long while.
Glory probably doesn't feel exactly the same as she did when she
wrote that post. So it only seems right not to go too deeply into it.
Grumpy you softy.

@Glory, nah I wasn't saying it was all the same,
just that beauty is the recurring theme in the post.
I read it. Plus, it seemed a bit spontaneous.
I thought it was poetry until some way through.
But I justify my response by saying...
I still don't know exactly what you're talking about.
I'm guessing something inspired you to immerse yourself in the idea,
the obsession, to make beautiful things like drawing? (Not sure what triggered that.)

What Glory and Grumpy are talking about has 80% gone over my head.
I mean, it's a little strange that Glory's desire to be a good artist and the fact
that the world is a cold place are both in the same title, know what I mean?
Kinda confused me so I didn't know exactly what to write, hence the
question at the end "so Glory...what exactly do you want us to do?". 
I wasn't sure if it was a "need some counseling, you guise!" thread
or a "philosophical ponder" thread.

And I can only apologise for Oliver's behaviour.
Because


(Jk. No Oli you didn't do anything wrong, Grumpy's just one big softy. )
But I guess it's nice that Grumpy looks out for Glory.
But I don't think she got upset over what we wrote anyway.
Especially since she wrote that many hours ago.
We're off the hook Oli!  
Lighten up, Bat Sheep.  

Oooh no no i wasn't saying you gave it a bad tone or it was all the same xP
I was just saying i was repeating a lot of stuff,
And again it was a venting post, so i didn't really expect much...

Well
It was just a "philosophical pondering" thing, i dunno, my boyfriend says stuff like that a lot.. maybe he's just rubbed off on me...
He's more in the he wants to show people how things can be beautiful,
But i'm more of i want people to feel things beautifully...

I dunno, kinda different   


Haha i was just reading too much poetry, and listening to too much good music...


The title basically meant, how i felt that i wish i could do more,
Because it feels like people are just giving in to not working hard, and are giving up on trying to make beautiful things.

Movies are no longer good unless there's head chopping or *cough cough*

And that's just sad...


And i know there's a whole bunch of people out there thinking the same thing.. i just hope to find them some day   



So yes, you guys are fine xP

And yes i do feel differently (i try to avoid thinking because i either think things like that, or cry hahaha)



But yes, there's nothing you guys need to do...

But now that we're on the topic... i'm curious...




What things do you guys think are beautiful??

I'm curious...
It could be anything,
A book, poetry, music, photography, any other type of art
Whatever you think is really beautiful, and kinda takes your breath away for a bit...

I really want to know   


I had some poetry in the original post
But i honestly have a super soft spot for "yesterday" by the beatles and "cannon in D" not gonna lie, they may seem like a weird combo, but both of those songs always just make me pause and wonder at the beauty of the world  

Been trying to read this thread for 2 days but my Phone kept loading up half...........then destroying the rest of the page.


Wow. That was deep Glory. 

Its every artist's desire to want to create beautiful art. I suffer with that myself more often than not. We want to be able to create what we see in our minds, create it in a physical sense for all the world to see.

But when we realize we cant just yet and we yet and still have more grind work to do on the way to doing such a thing then that is where we make the decision:

Do we give up with this "failing" journey to become an excellent artist............or do we just fail one more time, get back up, take a look back and determine what we did right and learn from that and keep going.

Of course, you already know this. Its shown in all of your work. Make an art summary of the work you hosted up here when you first got here in order of what you've made until now. Doing that ALWAYS gives artists the confidence boost that they need.

Grumpz REFUSES to look at his super early work that he made because he's improved so radically that the early stuff just seems like child play for him. Which, comparing the two........it is.  

Awwwww

Such dedication   


Well thank you

and yeah, i am definitely still going to try,
I also want to work on my poetry,
And next year i'm actually taking a photography class too   

I just want to do it all!   


Haha but we'll see what i like most...

I just hope that one day i can travel the world and somehow impact people,

So i'm not giving up yet...
I've got a few (70 or so) years left ;D